~ Insomnia ~
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"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!"
the piercing screams
the cold murmurings
was stealing every moment she had with her cellists

who's been so sweet
so lovely
so loving
separated frm her dreams
from her fantasy
from him

shoving back to solitary
to misery
to her memories
to reality

slicing into her so deep.
awaken
so shaken
fallen all of a sudden

bruising every surface of her skin
breaking every fragile bone
awaken, still searching
then again, she realised he was gone
never again could she go back to her sleep
to her dreams
to dancing tgt in de wind
with him

every single night
she tears beside her moonlight
praying she could return
return to her cellist's arms

right by his side
right beside his cello
right before her favourite tree

feeling so cold
never could she return to her beautiful dream..
ever again..
bidding goodbye...

~ voice of the cellist ~

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thunderous waves crashed against the shores
receiving sighs from salty breeze

the echoes called
" dance along with me.."
"please don't cry anymore"
"please let me calm you with a kiss"

those emotional words
these condemned memories

"let me carry you away with the winds"
she leap into another beautiful dream

shutting her eyes
the comfort she once felt
was swirling in her mind
there slowly she melts
freed from her cell
seated beside her favourite tree
swinging and singing in the wind

infront of the dark sea
the ocean's breeze sing
with her eyes shut she could finally see

the wonders of her dream
she has always wished
leaping of the swing
she starting dancing with her dearest cello
giving kisses to her loveliest cellist

"is it possible for this to last"
"forever together with you"
she asked...
"the answer lies within you my dear"
silently she continued her dance
locking her fears
into her vault so far
yet so close to her heart...

~ false hopes ~
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purple, red then all black
splotches of her thoughts flashed
everything spun into an endless dream
death glared furiously against the ceiling
awaiting to receive more cursing
but begging for more blessings
falling into the bottomless pit flaming with anguish
wishing she could flinch
flinch away from the horror in front of her eyes
every night she cries
in the middle of the moonless night
as she prayed to the skies
wishing she could just die
fading together into forgetting memories
fading together into oblivion
into the blistering wind
screams pierced and rip her beautiful world
into tiny fragile crisps
into a tiny ball she curled
grasp and suffocated by unseen fingers
she was fallen from her melodious dance
broken, fallen, withered
her sharp screams breaking the glasses of her dream
choking and dying for air to breath
will there be any left to ease
her cursed and battered soul
will there be a peaceful dream
will there be someone she could grab hold
shattered..still she wants to hope
something that is never there..
but she hopes...

~ so vulnerable, breakable ~
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for what there is to live
while she lingered along the streets
of her broken memories and dreams
of her very well condemned demented past
burning intensely against her skin
the world was turning into a complete rust
the blazing pain in the piercing breeze
shuddering her fragile body
everything she touched wilt and withered to pieces
flaming her wounds into an endless nightmare
jeopardizing her senses
as nothing could seize her screams
and make her night come to an ease
she was so vulnerable
so breakable
but why was she never lovable
abandoned,
banished,
and shun away
a living outcast
every minute of her life was always a solitary moment
she was turned into sprinkles of dust
hoping and desiring for a moment of an enlightenment
as she danced in her fantasy that never lasts
her wings
broken,
stripped of her back
bleeding profusely another scar written on her
wondering when will she crack
when her limits are stretchable
yet again..
very vulnerable..
so breakable...